The Day my Bubble Exploded

(Cubbies is a 3-4 year old program at my church that teaches them Bible verses and manners and all sorts of stuff, it is a branch of AWANA) Now I have 6 kids-- Destiny, Gracy, Rebekkah, Carson, Brandon, and Matthew.. Oh and Jeremy Miles is my helper person.. My kids are ALWAYS up to date on their verses from the start they were the only group of kids to have all their verses done. I had fun with them and they had fun with me.. But Daben always seemed to not like me.. I don't know why.. My kids and I had finished our craft and as usual I had done mine for Kalynn and wrote a little note on it and I took it to her.. Just like I ALWAYS do and instead of her being with her class she was just sitting at the vending machines.. So as I ALWAYS do I dropped it next to her and went back to my table… but Krystal's group was sitting next to mine and her and I were messing around cuz our kids were done with their craft and we'd said all our verses, tonight I had Carson, Destiny, Brandon, and Matthew, those kids don’t pay attention to what I do.. Trust me I know my kids.. And I told Krystal to shove it.. YEA NOT A BIG DEAL.... I mean at the current moment my kids were quoting Napoleon Dynamite and I was joking around with them.. They love it when we just joke around I mean one day I gave them all crazy names like Margenhog (Meaning Tiger jumping up a tree) see? we have great times.. And Kelsi and Randa were messing with Jeremy…and Daben pulls me out of the room and says to me "You've gotta stop acting like this.. These kids are watching you and they are paying attention to what you are doing".. I said "We are all done with our verses and craft.. We have nothing to do" then he explodes my bubble you guys ready??
"Well you know I have a little girl in here and frankly to be honest with you, I would be ashamed to have her in your group" I just walked away then.. And went to sit with my kids.. Almost to tears and I start to clean up you know cuz I'd hate to offend anyone with a messy table and of course according to Daben my kids were being the worst behaved and poor Carson keeps saying "I's hungry" and we had to go last to snack... that was it.. I couldn’t take it anymore I had a five and I went looking for change (in the same room of course) and this one dude had a dollar, I told him I’d pay him back when I got change.. So I went to the vending machines and Kalynn was still there I couldn’t make eye contact with her and I was really frustrated cuz the stupid snack machine wouldn’t take my dollar..
So I gave up and started to head back.. but I decided I couldn’t return to that place.. so I turned around and decided to get a juice.. so of course.. I did and Kalynn goes I always wanted to try that..
so I said want a sip?
She took one and I thankfully sat down next to my ever-loving friend.. Problem was that I could see the cubbies room from my spot so I shifted to the other side where all I could see was Kalynn and the Minute Maid button on the machine..
I just stared at the rug and we chatted about her tourney and I decided to tell her what happened… she was pissed. No joke she was like I’ll yell at him if I find out who it is..
Daben was trying to wave me down to come back and Mrs. Karen wanted me too.. but I said no (I imagine that at this moment Daben’s telling Jeremy to come and get me) …and then I made the mistake.. I made eye contact with Jeremy, he came and tried to get me to go back.. I told him no and that it was an A B conversation so C your way out of it and he saw Daben so he left... then Daben took one look at me and went straight to Tony.. (Tony is the Ambassador.. the head hauncho of AWANA at our church..)
Kalynn gets up and I supposed she was gunna bash so I just left.. and I start walking back and the only words I can make out are from Tony “We’ll take care of it”..

So I automatically take it to be the worst..
my current thoughts.. THEY ARE GOING TO KICK ME OUT.. THEY’RE GUNNA TAKE MY KIDS AWAY!
I go and sit next to Jeremy and tell him what Tony said.. (not knowing what was going on between Kalynn, Tony, and Daben..)
I was SO scared.. I loved these kids with all my heart.. they were usually what pulled me through to wake up in the mornings..
Daben returned and I wasn’t ready for a confrontation so I naturally as Brandon if he wants to sit in my lap (Brandon’s mom Mrs. Hayes loves me the most.. she’s always complementing me on how well I handle the kids.. one day she subbed for me when I was sick..) and avoid Daben altogether.. we returned to our tables and I wanted to leave right away cuz I couldn’t handle seeing those kids parents.. for what I thought may be the last time.. I put all their coats on and told Jeremy to call me in 5 if I hadn’t called him yet.. I wasn’t in the mood for talking to anyone.. but it didn’t work.. Tony stopped me and I was sure I was a goner.. but he gave me a big hug and asked if I was okay and then said “I love you, but Daben’s the boss, thank you for helping in everything that you do.”
I then nodded sublimely and turned to my fateful day.. for I had been defeated.. he called me again and pointed at me the way he always did and said “I love you girl!”..
I nodded again and returned to my well-used path of sadness and almost cried.. but I remembered my mom and told myself to stop.. I crossed into the Plex and told my buddies I would be unable to attend Bible study because my mom needed to work, when I honestly just couldn’t stand looking at anyone.. I returned to my car and called Jeremy and told him I was in the car.. mom asked about that and I said “he wanted to make sure I got to the car safe..” she called her mom and I was sick of her ignoring me by calling her mother so I called Kalynn to see what had happened..
she told me that Daben had told Tony that she must have distracted me..
Kalynn then told him that it was his fault that he had really hurt me and that she was just being there for her friend and that I was almost to tears.. and that he never should have handled it that way in front of the kids..
then Daben goes I pulled her out of the room..
and Kalynn says Yea, but then she had to return to those kids you should have waited until AWANA was over to talk to her like that…

I of course had to tell my mother all about it and she told me I needed to find out what I had done to offend him… of course she always takes the other peoples’ sides.. I wish I had a mom that comforted and then brought me back to reality Like Mrs.Bonola or Mrs.Allen or someone like them.. ugh.. I’m not sure I can handle going back to that..